| I seem to have a taste for players and the ones that are a little messed up. I like the imperfections as much as I dislike them. I don't know why most girls are terrified to fall for the ones that play their games well. I think the uncertainty is half the fun. It's the anticipation of a heartbreak that makes it more thrilling. I used to want security but IB taught me to be a risk-taker. Playing with fire is better than playing it safe, no? :)
Maybe I am just strange. Or maybe I am just lying to myself.
I just came back from kap after sending Sher and b home. I think our English "tuition" was not bad. Thanks Sher. :) really hope I don't screw up my English. :/ |
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| So I looked at my phone and i saw November 4, HOLY FUCK TOMORROW MY EXAMS START! i am so nottttttttt prepared!! :( :( :(
My results are going to break my mum's heart and my dad's. How the fuck do I tell my mum "Sorry mum, I know IB exams are really important but i fucked up the two years i was in IB. I am sorry I wasted almost 80k going to this school. I know you really wanted me to do well,"
How do I put her through that?
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| we were always meant to say good-bye.
pretty boy, love is just a lie.
but maybe you will change my mind. |
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| The magic of bedtime stories is the happily ever afters. At least to me. No matter how bad things get, eventually, the girl and the boy always end up together. Love always win. But reality isn't so pretty, and this story is a little crazy.
Romeo can never be Chuck. And I can't be like Bonnie, even though (I think) I love you just as much. |
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| I have ten (or is it nine) days left until the most important exams of my teenage life. It's not surprising that I am not ready(when am I ever ready for an exam?). But last minute is my thing! :) Brandon is sitting beside me saying "no kick ah, give me some kick!" while I am freaking out about my bio/Spanish/Econ/English/maths/geog. Why do I feel like a joke?
On a much happier note, after prom I am going to hong kong on a shopping trip. Yay! B, jon and i can't stop talking about it. We can't even focus on the fact that our exams come before our trip. I hope we can confirm it soon so that everytime I am looking at my bio notes I can think of how great hk is going to be. :) Jon is damn funny, he spent more time sleeping and disturbing Brandon and I than he does looking at his bio notes. Everytime I look at Jon, I feel happier knowing that at least there is one person in school I am studying harder than. HAHA!
I wish thoughts of you stop disturding me when I am studying. I can't seem to put you at the back of my mind. You are like a shadow and I am the girl who can't find complete darkness.
This Christmas will be the first without my brother. It will be the first of many to come. Why do we all grow up so fast? Why does growing up tear people apart?
B and Jon went to look for chicks. I should get back to proteins. I should really stop waking up at three in the afternoon and studying at nine at night. It's messing up my life! |
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